Lyrics

Flesh and blood surrounds flesh and blood

Cryptic words float in the air

Nothing to compare

Seeking transcendence

True independence

What cord should I play?

To symbolize death

And ward off fear

Flesh and blood flesh and blood

The evocative priest

tries to restrain the beast

He gathers his authority

And his robes

to hide his bones

And proclaims “This angst is beneath you”

And mumbles something about poetry

Flesh and blood

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Like an old god, almost gone

Fishing without bait

On a frozen, arsenic lake

I wake

Who mourns for the sun

Destined to explode?

In a universe that goes on forever

The dust settles

On her nose

I doze

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I’ve got this giant monkey brain and it likes to solve problems

But it can’t solve itself

It can’t solve death so it can’t solve life

But it can make this

I’ve got this giant monkey brain and it likes to solve problems

But it can’t solve itself

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I wanna walk like a giant.

A giant of loving kindness

I want to sing my song for the people

and sing my song for me… sing my song for me

Once I was like a mountain, nothing could move me

Now I’m like a leaf in the river, waiting to go to sea

Once I was like captain, steering my destiny (my ship to land)

Now I’m a ghost ship, just happy to be afloat

I wanna walk like a giant

I wanna dance, dance like a giant

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I can’t sing a note.

Can’t stay on time

Onstage that moment appears

The downbeat is here will the music come?

Will I pull it off?

Not really

I can’t sing a note can’t stay on time

But I love that moment

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All I have is a little song

Some words to try and express

A little artifice

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I will no longer aspire to have a preference

But I have a preference here on this stage

Applaud for me. Love me enough to fill whatever I think is empty.

A castle of broken souls cries out in horror. Here we are.

I will get a package in the mail from mysterious alliance that recognizes my authenticity and wants
me to join

My hunger sated the rest of life is but a game

Someone will catch me when I fall

It’s about time I say it’s about time

Applaud for me. My eccentrics are not madness, they are the unspoken poems of the masses.

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A light floating in the air

Set against a darkened sky

Rain descends from its lair

A rumble barely sighs

A light, reflected in a cloud

Is it really their?

Illusions break into a shroud

But still they remain

Despite my doubt

Existing just the same

The light flickers but does not die

It seems to show the way

It’s reflection multiplies

Come what may

Debrie from my mind
Dribbles into formless meaning
I don’t know why
Floating darkness being
I don’t know why

I’d follow it if it led anywhere
I don’t know why

The ground beneath me falls apart

I look to the light for a connection

Against the dark, It is only

a reflection

But I love it just the same

Out in the dark one stormy night
I saw a light like no other

And in it’s reflection I saw my hopes and dreams
They were being torn apart at the seams.

It was sitting in the darkened sky
And I thought to myself

If it only guide me to the place I need to be

Oh one darkened night
I did see a light
but it took no heed of my plight
I just sat there all stinkin night
doing nothing to take me home

Instead on this darkened night
You take no heed of my plight
You let me wander and roam
You do not bring me home

Sometimes I don’t know what to do
And so I look to you

But you take no heed of my plight
You god damn stupid light

You reflect nothing but my fear

And in the clouds the light fumbled about
And all my thoughts they tumbled right out

One night I saw a light

It could be to much more you know
It could be so much more to me
If it would only guide me home

All I had left was a pout
And some doubt

And a light

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I curate my thoughts for your benefit

I give you my best advice

To what end? I don’t know

Stay hydrated; get enough sleep

Maybe these things matter.

structural causes matter

But if you don’t know yourself

You won’t change nothing

To what end? To what end?

I really do not know

When I tell you Feeling Mortal

is a true masterpiece

And morning dew it blows my mind

Does it matter what you hear?

To what end? To what end? Do I curate my thoughts?

I’ve no clue

When I show you a song
And everything comes out wrong

I don’t mean for you to hear the same notes that I heard

What I want from you,

is to feel what I felt

And so I try to resist the urge
To pile on a list of things you should have heard

My spacesuit of social manners

Protecting my ego

But to what end I don’t know

I curate my thoughts for my own benefit

Asking something in return

What do I really want?

A Shakey voice that’s as real as the day is long

Moments that stand for themself

Honoring the irrationalities

I see you seeing me.

The god in me is honored by

the acknowledgment of the god in you.

Yet still the question remains

To what end indeed?

For even gods have there ends

And even I must say amen

although I am surely condemned

To never again truly depend

on any ability to transcend

I ask my self is this the end?

I do not know I do not know

I really do not know

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What are my deepest dreams

and is there a sense in which that matters
I’d hate for my bleak outlook to unduly influence you
I’d hate to impose my will
If we are clever
and if we are cool
and if we never
play the fool
Will that make us safe?
What words can I speak
to make the hauntings go away
If only for the night
What matters more than tonight?

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This is the story of the Murricane

The one society came to blame
When they had run out of other tricks
And used up all the stones and their sticks
Had to swallow that bitter magic pill
Stop, look around and be still
Let me tell you about the Murricane
The one who had all the fame
Well in the end when the chips were down
He smiled and played the clown
Straight through his smirking frown
And when they saw the horror they had wrought
And knew it was just what they had bought
There was nothing they could do
Step back and see what was true
See a life worn straight through
Something in a shade of blue
Ripped out into the night
Howling it’s plight
But this the story of the Murricane
The one who saw it was the same
And when someone had to take the fall
He was there, that’s all
It was the story of Murricane
The one society came to blame

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Yo-Ho Pedro doesn’t seem to care
Look at him, and you’ll get a dead eyed stare
He’s the last one in
and the first one out
Yo Ho Pedro draws circles around the moon
He doesn’t it’ll matter anytime soon
Ask him, and he’ll tell you straight
That he’s here at all is a miracle
Yo Ho Pedro says
And says symbols don’t matter at all
But you know he’s lying
Casting back he wonders
 where his ship has gone
Yo Ho Pedro always tries his best
Lying flat on the floor, trying to find his chest
Hard to build up the energy to move
Always trying to figure out his groove
Nobody quite knows what to make of Yo Ho Pedro
A madman who doesn’t seem to care for his fate
When the chips are down

Yo Ho Pedro doesn’t think it matters at all

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I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Here we are
Far off in the background, suns explode
It’s all impossible
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Leaves flutter on the wind
Apocalypse or no,
Dragons wary eyes
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
The illusion of the mud people
As we bounce our myths from one another
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Spend my life thinking I’m going somwhere
But deep down I know that is a lie
….
never get out alive
No matter what I do
Things keep getting heavy
It don’t weigh much
But it ain’t light
I look around
And lose my way
I lose my way
The universe spins around
Time and time again
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Here we are
Far off in the background, suns explode
It’s all impossible
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Leaves flutter on the wind
Apocalypse or no,
Dragons wary eyes
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing
The illusion of the mud people
As we bounce our myths from one another
I want to be honest with you
I don’t know what I’m doing